Fear

My fear has finally arrived. I knew that this would happen sooner or later, and yea, sure it does. To be frank, i come from a rather uneducated family but i am not embarrassed of that. It is not as if in your family you are going to talk about what is the most efficient way of boiling water based on kinectic particle theory, or calculate the most money-saving way of using electricity. What i am worried about is not the communication among family members of different education level, its rather about the way we think.
When i was young, other than making mistakes because i act much faster than i speak, i had never, and i really mean NEVER, gone into any conflict with my parents. i would just be unhappy over them not allowing me to eat chocolates or asking me to do my penmanship. But that is not considered a conflict, isn't it? However, as i get more literate and start to like know more about the world, my views starts to differ from theirs. Whenever i hear them complain about the governments' policies, i would somehow start debating with them over the positive points of the policies. Whenever i do that, we start to quarrel. This situation worsened when last year, when i have to take social studies and geography. I start to gain more knowledge about what was exactly happening in the world and why are different policies implemented. From then on, MORE CONFLICTS. It seemed as though i can no longer agree with them. It not only the more political issues anymore, its like, everything. I have no idea what im actually thinking. Whatever they say, i just feel the urge to rebuke. And when i mean rebuke, i mean debating like some kinda lawyer. I would not give in unless i feel that i am on the winning end, childish yea? i think so oo, but i just can't help it. I hate to do that. But anyways, back to it, yea, one example is like recently, my mum is complaining that her boss refuses to give her any off-days, especially when national day falls on a thursday, which is supposedly her off-day. She starts complaining about it and im like "its good what, u get double pay lei". And that was the spark... She now insists that i only care about money and neglect how fatigue she is. I really don't understand her way of thinking anymore man!
1) She only works half a day even if she works on a public holiday, she is not deprived from resting in the afternoon! You do the same amount of work and you get twice the [ay, u do the math, this is clearly a great deal!
2) I merely said 'good what, got double pay', how is that neglecting her health and everything? I believe most of the adults out there work for the sole reason of supporting the family. Since the aim of working is to bring home the bacon, isn't it good to have an extra day's pay? I am merely being happy for you over the profit and u claimed that i am being a heartless girl?! No link ?!
3) She complains to my father about the matter too. So, being a male chauvinist, he believes that he has the duty of resolving her problems, suggests some possible solutions and all she said was "cannot de" , "impposible", "ya right, not as if it will work". Omg, then what do you want. My father comes home from work and is bombarded countless rejections when he has not even taken his bath? I admire his tolerance and patience man, seriously, i salute him for that. How can he be tired and yet patient at the same time? i don't get it...
But oh wells, thats what couples are for right? "...in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live." what a sweet vow *envy* At least they are always there for each other, but what about me? What if one day the gaps between us gets larger and larger till an extent with i can never harmonise with their views anymore? what will happen? am i going to be left deserted on my own patch of torn land with no one else by my side? i wonder...

OLYMPICS

          Watch the badminton singles' (mens) finals yesterday. It was like, AWESOME. It was between Lin Dan from China and Lee Chong Wei from Malaysia.Actually i think yesterday wasn't the first time they played against each other, i think they have played against each other in the SEA Games before. But anyways, it was a rather close fight, especially the last set, it was 21:19 !!!! So Close!!!!! Lin Dan won in the end :(  Yes, he is from China. To speak the truth, i am not whiny about China winning, i don't really care which country wins, i am more concerned about WHO won. Both of their standards are almost on par i guess but i was hoping that Lee Chong Wei will win. He did not start playing badminton for the ultimate goal of participating in Olympics to earn money, he genuinely likes and enjoys playing badminton. i am amazed by how that happened. I mean like many a times, we would say that we like doing this, we like doing that. But how many times have the passion been not extinguished? Are we able to like doing something so much that it actually becomes a career? Because he love badminton, he wants to do his best to make his country proud, to sort of "account' for himself. Unfortunately, he lost, and thus the breakdown. It heart-wrenching to see him like just squat down on the court, staring into space while Lin Dan runs around the court in joy. Its damn cruel can !!!! Worse still, Lin Dan keep on hugging Lee Chong Wei. I mean like come on la, u just made someone lose and you keep on hugging the person? He has enough sportsmanship and courage to brave himself can! It is not a biased opinion, i like Lin Dan a lot too.But his actions really tells me a lot about him. Low EQ perhaps? anyway, Hope Lee Chong Wei will take part in the next Olympics and do his country proud again!!!!  <3

FIRST

YAY!!! Finally created a blog of my own after like EONS... The url of my blog says it all. Procrastinating Queen. I have always wanted a blog of my own but i would either create one and forget my password, or too lazy to create one. Today, when i woke up in the morning, there was this sudden urge that i NEED to have a blog. I have no idea whats with that sense of urgency but anyways, it made my wish come true